The Quiet Pain of Losing Someone Dear

Back in the days, there was your voice
You used to be my hero...
Now even with tons of memories, I'm 
acting like feelings fade to zero...

Will I ever return to yesterday?
Will you sit with me again?
I guess you are tired enough 
To sit with and hiding your pain...

Were you hurt because of me?
I kept saying I miss you...
How can I get the chance;
The chance to get back you?

I haven't gotten used to loneliness 
Never forgetting your eyes...
Just laying on my bed, thinking how
Can a loved one quietly flies...

I kept suppressing myself
not speaking from the heart...
But memories easily bring me down
Wanting you back on earth...

Everyday I feel helpless
Everything about you is becoming faint...
You smile back in my pictures
Giving your farewell as a hint...

Slowly fading away from me
 leaving me forever...
At that time, except me 
no one was there...

How can I forget that moment 
You're already gone...
Leaving me in a chaos where
On my side, I have none...

Though I had some faults 
I tried much to save you...
But not looking at my attempts 
Death is what I got from you...

🙂

-Abrar Fai Yaz